Thursday, August 10

When I grow up...

Its Rakshabandhan today, and I’m terribly homesick. I am becoming more and more homesick these past few days, which is very unlike me. I guess it has something to do with the little bro going to college. Its sinking in slowly that he’s going far far away, and I’m getting busier by the day, and it’ll be hard for the family to be together as often. Sigh. Now I know what mom means when she looks at me, almost astonished, and says when did you grow up? Mom, when did he grow up?

I wish I’d been home today; I’d have liked to tie him a rakhi and extort lots of money in return! Sigh! Growing up’s a bitch sometimes.

The only consolation at the moment is that I get to fly home one of these weekends to see him before he’s off! When I left home, the room was redone, furniture was shuffled and shelves and closets were moved, and he took it over. Now when he leaves, what happens? Mom wonders what she’s gonna do in an empty house. It’s not like he is always around when he’s living there. Guys in their teens, you know how they are. But still, atleast he was there, behind that door, somewhere beyond that noise called music. She wonders, I try not to think.

In other news, work’s keeping me so busy that I have to check what’s happening on the Friday and the following Monday before I can book my tickets home. But I’m not complaining – its been exciting and rewarding so far! Besides, it gives direction and takes up so much time, that I don’t end up getting entangled in other issues! Perhaps not the best approach at resolving issues, but at least it works – for me atleast!